- 1 The reasons I can't stop hurting myself knowing that it's meaningless
- 2 In order to lead a positive you must overcome emotions that lead to self-harm
- 3 It's important to try to achieve your goals, and don't care too much about what others say
- 4 I think it is important to try to believe in yourself, and not think in a negative way
- 5 Life seems meaningless, but there are still things we can do
The reasons I can't stop hurting myself knowing that it's meaningless
Like I wrote in other articles of my blog, I couldn’t stop acting in a self-destructive way. I don’t know why, but I assume it was because I lacked in self-affirmation and I hated myself, also I wasn’t confident of my features. I sometimes want to indulge in things that have a high possibility of harming me such as slitting my wrists and indulge in other things that I can't say in public.
I feel like it 私は〜だと感じる
I assume 〜だと推測する
lack in self-affirmation 自己肯定感
indulge in 〜没頭する
high possibility 高い可能性
slitting my wrists リストカットをする
in public 公共の場で
In order to lead a positive you must overcome emotions that lead to self-harm
I must cope with these mental disorders in order to succeed and make some achievements, if I keep on being negative I will push myself to the point where I can’t get back to normal by hurting myself so I have to deal with my fluctuating emotions and fight back with self-destructive feelings so I can achieve something. I want to earn self-affirmation that is solid enough that I won’t give up just because other people try to make fun of me, or try to insult me of my characteristics or whatever.
make some achievement 偉業を成し遂げる
push myself to the point 〜のところまで自分を押す
fluctuating emotions 変動する感情
It's important to try to achieve your goals, and don't care too much about what others say
No matter what other people say, I won’t stop doing what I want to do until I can feel that I’ve done a lot to save others' feelings and I feel that I’ve at least done something to make my experience in US and Japan a useful one.I don’t want to succumb to those who made fun of me, nor I don’t want to surrender to my own weaknesses.
make fun of 馬鹿にする
succumb to, surrender to 屈する
I think it is important to try to believe in yourself, and not think in a negative way
Whenever I feel negative, I should believe I have a high spirit, enough power, and strength to fight back and move forward even if I have to cope with my mental illnesses, and I will definitely achieve something by trying to get away with desires and addiction ( getting addicted to things that ruin my life) that tries to stop me from achieving my goal.
high spirit 不屈の精神
fight back 戦う
Whenever I feel like I want to slit my wrists, I should do something else that will relieve my stress such as running until I feel that drug-like substances is omitted inside my brain, and I should not get into a sexual relationship with men easily anymore, since it ruins my body and it will depreciate my value, make me feel like a valueless person.
I seriously want to do something for others that have gone through some difficulties as me, and I’m doing all of this for self-satisfaction and to motivate myself to move forward, even if life seems harsh and there are a lot of obstacles that we need to face.
Life seems meaningless, but there are still things we can do
Even if life seems meaningless, I think we can seek the meaning of myself being able to speak in English and knowing people’s feelings that lacks in social skills, who have difficulties in speaking in front of others, suffering from not being able to earn self-affirmation, and confidence and appearances, being addicted to sexual things, having difficulties in adjusting themselves to the Japanese society.
have difficulties in〜 〜することが難しい
lack in social skills 社会性に欠けている
being addicted to 〜中毒になっている