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自己肯定感が下がって、自分を追い込みそうになった時はどうすればいいのか?

自己肯定感が低くなって、自分を追い込みそうになった時はどうすればいいのか?と言うことについてお話ししたいと思っています。

The reasons I can't stop hurting myself knowing that it's meaningless

意味がないと知りながら自分を痛めつけたくなるのがやめられない理由について考えてみた

Like I wrote in other articles of my blog, I couldn’t stop acting in a self-destructive way. I don’t know why, but I assume it was because I lacked in self-affirmation and I hated myself, also I wasn’t confident of my features. I sometimes want to indulge in things that have a high possibility of harming me such as slitting my wrists and indulge in other things that I can't say in public.

ブログの他の記事に書いたように、私は自己破壊的な方法で行動するのをやめられませんでした。理由はわかりませんが、自己肯定が足りず、自分が嫌いで、自分の特徴に自信がなかったからだと思います。リスカをしたり、人前では言えないことなど、危険性の高いものにふけることもあります

I feel like it 私は〜だと感じる

I assume 〜だと推測する

lack in self-affirmation 自己肯定感

features 特徴

indulge in 〜没頭する

high possibility  高い可能性

slitting my wrists リストカットをする

in public 公共の場で

In order to lead a positive you must overcome emotions that lead to self-harm

I must cope with these mental disorders in order to succeed and make some achievements, if I keep on being negative I will push myself to the point where I can’t get back to normal by hurting myself so I have to deal with my fluctuating emotions and fight back with self-destructive feelings so I can achieve something. I want to earn self-affirmation that is solid enough that I won’t give up just because other people try to make fun of me, or try to insult me of my characteristics or whatever.

成功して成果を上げるためには、これらの精神障害に対処しなければなりません。ネガティブになり続けると、自分を傷つけて正常に戻れないところまで押し上げて、変動する感情に対処しなければなりません。そして、私が何かを成し遂げることができるように、自己破壊的な感情で反撃します。他の人が私をからかったり、私の性格などを侮辱したりするからといって諦めないほどしっかりした自己肯定を獲得したいです。

make some achievement 偉業を成し遂げる

push myself to the point 〜のところまで自分を押す

fluctuating emotions 変動する感情

self-destructive 自己破壊的な

solid 強固な

insult 中傷

characteristics 性格

It's important to try to achieve your goals, and don't care too much about what others say

目標を決めて達成するように挑戦してみることが大事で、他の人の言うことにあまり惑わされないようにしよう

No matter what other people say, I won’t stop doing what I want to do until I can feel that I’ve done a lot to save others' feelings and I feel that I’ve at least done something to make my experience in US and Japan a useful one.I don’t want to succumb to those who made fun of me, nor I don’t want to surrender to my own weaknesses.

他の誰がなんと言おうと、私は自分のやりたいことを辞めません。

make fun of 馬鹿にする

succumb to, surrender to 屈する

weaknesses 弱味

I think it is important to try to believe in yourself, and not think in a negative way

自分を信じて悪い方向に考えないように意識することが大事

Whenever I feel negative, I should believe I have a high spirit, enough power, and strength to fight back and move forward even if I have to cope with my mental illnesses, and I will definitely achieve something by trying to get away with desires and addiction ( getting addicted to things that ruin my life) that tries to stop me from achieving my goal.

high spirit 不屈の精神

fight back 戦う

desires  欲望

addiction 中毒

Whenever I feel like I want to slit my wrists, I should do something else that will relieve my stress such as running until I feel that drug-like substances is omitted inside my brain, and I should not get into a sexual relationship with men easily anymore, since it ruins my body and it will depreciate my value, make me feel like a valueless person.

 

depreciate 価値を下げる

valueless 価値がない

I seriously want to do something for others that have gone through some difficulties as me, and I’m doing all of this for self-satisfaction and to motivate myself to move forward, even if life seems harsh and there are a lot of obstacles that we need to face.

self-satisfaction 自己満足

harsh 厳しい(ネイティブはよく使います)

obstacles 障害

Life seems meaningless, but there are still things we can do

人生は意味のないように思えるが、その中でも出来る事はたくさんある

Even if life seems meaningless, I think we can seek the meaning of myself being able to speak in English and knowing people’s feelings that lacks in social skills, who have difficulties in speaking in front of others, suffering from not being able to earn self-affirmation, and confidence and appearances, being addicted to sexual things, having difficulties in adjusting themselves to the Japanese society.

seems 〜のように思える

meaningless 無意味

have difficulties in〜 〜することが難しい

lack in social skills 社会性に欠けている

being addicted to 〜中毒になっている

self-affirmation 自己肯定感

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アメリカ出身の帰国子女です。TOEIC940、英検1級を所持しています。 軽度の発達障害やその他色々な「生きづらさ」を抱えていますが、そんな自分にも何かできることはないかと思ってブログを初めてみました。 英語の勉強法やライフハックについて知りたい方は、ぜひ見ていってください。

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